| Watching Picnic again for the umpteenth time. We need more trains. The tin-roofed stations in red brick or the grand multi-track white terminals. Someone left me by train once, tearily, and I never should have let his jive ass back in to collect his things that were stashed in Patty’s room. Patty’s room is the closet. He was a closet case. He was a cliché. He left by train but the train was a bus. Mysteries unfold on trains. Strangers disembark often enough to disrupt your day. My chief fear on trains is not murder nor stumbling into the wrong berth. There is no wrong berth. My fear is that I’ll have to ride backward into memory. I hate memory. My first train memory is the circus puffing by on its way to winter in Florida. Ever after I stood at the porch and watched the L & N, hoping for giraffes. There are no giraffes in most circuses, so I was obviously a forlorn child. Lonesome whistle. Did Hank Williams wake to the crossing guard blinking its red light across his face at night through a window he hoped someday to climb out. Trains are sad as elephants. Lumbering along. Or pulling down tents. Can’t blame Kim Novak for wanting to run off with William Holden, especially after seeing him with his shirt off, dancing under the pink and green Chinese lanterns, him moving in—I too would hold on. Even though I’m sure it’s wrong for Kim. It’s wrong for him. Where do people who are wrong for each other meet but in the movies or on trains. Best to meet a man who’s moving. Passing through. Let him ruin your weekend but not your life. That’s what weekends are for. Copyright © 2014 by D. A. Powell. Used with permission of the author. |
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