| The man sitting behind me is telling the man sitting next to him about his heart bypass. Outside the train’s window, the landscapes smear by— the earnest, haphazard distillations of America. The backyards and back sides of houses. The back lots of shops and factories. The undersides of bridges. And then the stretches of actual land, which is not so much land but the kinds of water courses and greenery that register like luck in the mind. Dense walls of trees. Punky little woods. The living continually out-growing the fallen and decaying. The vines and ivies taking over everything, proving that the force of disorder is also the force of plenty. Then the eye dilating to the sudden clearings—fields, meadows. The bogs that must have been left by retreating glaciers. The creeks, the algae broth of ponds. Then the broad silver of rivers, shiny as turnstiles. Attrition, dispersal, growth—a system unfastened to story, as though the green sight itself was beyond story, was peacefully beyond any clear meaning. But why the gust of alertness that comes to me every time any indication of the human passes into sight—like a mirror, like to like, even though I am not the summer backyard with the orange soccer ball resting there, even though I am not the pick-up truck parked in the back lot, its two doors opened wide, and no one around to show whether it is funny or an emergency that the truck is like that. Each thing looks new even when it is old and broken down. They had to open me up—the man is now telling the other man. I wasn’t there to see it, but they opened me up. Copyright © 2015 by Rick Barot. Used with permission of the author. |
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