Here’s your auntie, in her best gold-threaded shalwaar kameez, made small by this land of american men. Everyday she prays. Rolls attah & pounds the keema at night watches the bodies of these glistening men. Big and muscular, neck full of veins, bulging in the pen. Her eyes kajaled & wide, glued to sweaty american men. She smiles as guilty as a bride without blood, her love of this new country, cold snow & naked american men. “Stop living in a soap opera” yells her husband, fresh from work, demanding his dinner: american. Men take & take & yet you idolize them still, watch your auntie as she builds her silent altar to them— her knees fold on the rundown mattress, a prayer to WWE Her tasbeeh & TV: the only things she puts before her husband. She covers bruises & never lets us eat leftovers: a good wife. It’s something in their nature: what america does to men. They can’t touch anyone without teeth & spit unless one strips the other of their human skin. Even now, you don’t get it. But whenever it’s on you watch them snarl like mad dogs in a cage—these american men. Now that you’re older your auntie calls to say he hit her again, that this didn’t happen before he became american. You know its true & try to help, but what can you do? You, little Fatimah, who still worships him? Copyright © 2016 Fatimah Asghar. Used with permission of the author. |
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