| I usually wake up with acquisition in mind. I make myself the tallest pine; I have more birds on me than anybody! The sun hits my head first—it’s cooled a bit by the time it gets to your head. I thought I’d get the most if all the good saw me first and affably went there. It was sound, my lightening rod approach. One oversight was that when the bad was coming it also saw me first, and would match its force to my height in a way that, I’m sure, if I had a stutter or a limp would be lessened. In any case, it’s time to get lowly. Put on a formless gown and call it a shroud for your vanity, a gold braid o’re your forehead or a word you have to explain to everyone at the table. Even if it wasn’t vanity, but hunger. Even if it was mostly enthusiasm and affectionate regard. An invitation to join (less like “participate” and more like “become an actual part of,” cutting a part off so it fits more snugly with the other part.) Now you have a bed. Now you have a table. If the wood is still living we’ll make not furniture but a living structure: We can do what we call grafting. This too requires a bit of cutting. A dormant bud can be cut and grafted, as can a young shoot, but in all cases the point of vascular connection can end up weak due to the varying strengths of the two formerly distinct tissues. Once I blew my nose in a cafe despite the number of approximate men in beautiful sweaters and I knew I’d become another thing. Now when a block is sawed up it is made into implements. The finest sculptor carves the least. In this way, the block rests within all that is limitless. Copyright © 2014 by Hannah Gamble. Used with permission of the author. |
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