| in memoriam Cecil Young I am addicted to words, constantly ferret them away in anticipation. You cannot accuse me of not being prepared. I am ready for anything. I can create an image faster than just about anyone. And so, the crows blurring the tree line; the sky’s light dimming and shifting; the Pacific cold and impatient as ever: this is just the way I feel. Nothing more. I could gussy up those crows, transform them into something more formal, more Latinate, could use the exact genus Corvus, but I won’t. Not today. Like any addict, I, too, have limits. And I have written too many elegies already. The Living have become jealous of the amount I have written for the Dead. So, leave the crows perched along the tree line watching over us. Leave them be. The setting sun? Leave it be. For God’s sake, what could be easier in a poem about death than a setting sun? Leave it be. Words cannot always help you, the old poet had taught me, cannot always be there for you no matter how you store them away with sharpened forethought. Not the courier in his leather sandals, his legs dark and dirty from the long race across the desert. Not the carrier pigeon arriving with the news of another dead Caesar and the request you present yourself. Nothing like that. The telephone rings. Early one morning, the telephone rings and the voice is your mother’s voice. No fanfare. Your father’s brother is dead. He died that morning. And your tongue went silent. Like any other minor poet, you could not find the best words, the appropriate words. Leave it be now. You let your mother talk and talk to fill the silence. Leave it be. All of your practiced precision, all of the words saved up for a poem, can do nothing to remedy that now. Copyright © 2015 by C. Dale Young. Used with permission of the author. |
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